Sometimes, we can't comprehend the purpose that God intends for us. Once, a long time ago, I was that awkward kid that sat in the back of class, doodled and attempted to write poetry for the songs that danced in my thoughts. Once, I stood at the gate entrance to an open field and walked slowly, hoping that time would slow down and the warm wind would embrace me. I felt the tickling grass on my ankles, the beating sun from above, rushing winds spin about in a chaotic dance. I stood and stared at the other side and imagined how, I was looking at a place that when I would arrive, I would be a different person than the one standing and staring. Even that gaze, so quick, so fleeting, so unnoticed, took a part of my strange life. I once followed the path and then another time, I strayed. The words on each page, in every conversation, taken in in one way or another has been another passing moment and the phrases that became sentences that became stories and adventures all became another year in my life. The years passed and each new year I look back at the person that just sat and stared, looking forward to a different time. I look back at that person each year and think how pathetic he is. I think about the time I didn't understand, or the time I felt alone, or scared. I remember the guilt I bore and the success I achieved. I look back and hope that next time I look back, I'll feel better about that shadow staring at a new future. Even now, I look to a new future, where new people may enter my life and I will learn to take the strange and awkward emotions I have and discard them because the now is always changing. Regardless if I make a fool of myself or cry or stumble, the next moment will change and if I make a fool of myself for a good cause, then the outcome will hopefully be good as well. My life along with music, creativity, playing, jamming, doodling, laughing, chatting, eating, deciding, and moving forward will remain with me forever. Life is an adventure, meant to be explored with no regrets. Take action and enjoy every moment.
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AuthorMatthew Petrucci characterizes himself as a kind and friendly person. Writing, music, and any sort of artistic hobby suits Matthew as entertainment and enjoyable. He embraces close friendships and remains true and loyal to those who take him in. Archives
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